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Your brain is allowed
Some brains notice a lot. Some brains love one thing for a long time. Some brains find talking easy. Some brains find talking hard, and thinking easy. Autism can look like all of that.
It is not a germ. It is not your fault. It is not something you have to grow out of so other people feel comfortable.
The world is often built for a different kind of brain. When a room is too loud, or a plan changes, or people talk in hints — that is the room being a poor fit. You are not the problem to fix.
Try this
Say this once, out loud or in your head: my brain is allowed to be like this.